Happy New Year!

It's now 2014. Time really do fly huh? Last year I was just in my last months in high school, now I'm in my third semester in college. I'm still in my first year though and my school has four semesters in a year. So yeah. We study the whole year round.

New Year, new beginnings! That's what we all say, right? Well I started mine a bit similar.
For those of you who didn't know, which is probably everyone out there, I started this blog last year, 2013, around April. I think? The reason was I wanted to vent about my heartbreak that time.

It was not good, I tell you. I couldn't get over him until November last year. My birthday, that was the day I finally decided it was about time I free myself from hurting myself just because of him. That was the best decision I made last year.

Now, I erased all my previous posts which were all about the frenemies I made last year. and this is the last post I will never talk about them again here. Ever.

Reading back to it all,  I sounded like a lunatic. Crazy over love. Over someone who probably never loved me back. Crazy over people who were not worth being friends with anyway. I paid more attention to them than I should have. That was wrong. That just made me hate them more. It never helped me move on.

This 2014, I promise myself that I will forget all those conflicts. Forget they happened in the first place. It was both our faults anyway. We never talked about it all. Resulting to too much misunderstandings.

Now all I want to say is I'm sorry. I don't know if it's my fault, but I'm sorry anyway. I'm sorry. I was an unforgiving lunatic. I hold grudges too long. To that guy as well, I'm sorry I fell in love with you. Even I didn't want that to happen. But somehow I was glad I did. I learned that I was capable of loving that much. Thank you.

I wish you forgive me as well. I'm not expecting that we treat each other the same way again, but I hope you do.

Happy New Year!

새해 복 많이 받으세요~

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First love is young and innocent.

And pretty much very stupid most of the times.

Because that’s the first encounter.

We enter a stage that we know nothing of.

Entering a world where everything is new.

Everything is complicated at first.

But we grow to be familiar with it as we mature.

We experience all the things there is to learn from.

We learn affection.

We learn to be selfless.

We feel butterflies in our tummies.

Our faces heat up with just the mere thought of seeing that person.

We feel happy whenever that other person is happy.

We experience things more than we thought we could.

But nothing is permanent.

Without a warning, everything could change.

Everyone can change.

So I'm working on this fanfic and this is the foreword. The problem is I don't know what the title should be. I've been an avid fan of fanfictions. I've been reading fanfics for 4 years now. Either Wattpad, Asianfanfics, or some even in LiveJournal.

Some are boring. Some plots are too common. 

Bad boy meets good girl. Bad boy gives good girl the worst school life. And they eventually fall helplessly in love with each other.

Or rich guy falls in love with a peasant. And the rich evil mother gives her best in pulling them apart.

Yeah, they're just the same with those cliché Korean dramas. The thing is,  I don't know if mine is. So I'm probably not in the position to call those plots common. I don't really care though. I've been trying my best in writing fics since I started reading them but to no avail. I always end up writing the first few stages in the story and that's it. I always get writer's block. But this time I've got my mind set to finishing this.

The fic I've been talking about, I actually wrote it 4 years ago. It was my first. And as I've said, I never finished it. I never finished any of it. I've probably written ten or more beginnings.

But with all the reading and the added English classes in school I've done so far, I can say my writing has improved over time. My English professor even complemented me that I am a good writer. That was a first and it made my heart swell. Nobody ever commented on my writing like that. Thank you Mrs. Hernandez!

From what I know, story titles are supposed to be catchy. Something that could make the reader's mind wonder and end up reading your story. Something that's good and creative because that's what the reader's see first. Anyway, I still haven't made up my mind on what title I should choose. I haven't even come up with a single title. Ugh.

If your curious about this so-called story of mine, you can read it. I'm posting it in Asianfanfics. But not now. I'm going to finish writing the whole thing first and then that's the time I'm publishing it. Because if ever I start making people read each chapter and I'm still thinking of how to end it, I might just leave them hanging with no ending to the story. So all I can say is stay tuned. All I can promise somehow is that I'm going o finish it this January. I'll try my best to finish it this month and hopefully, it'll end up with a good title.

If you want to view my Asianfanfics account, the link is there at the left side. Just click "AFF"